Private Pride

Wrote it a few months ago, felt like uploading it.

Ah Lady Fate Has Played Her Cards Well
Imposing Me With Her Fatuous Will
Making Me Choose The Hardest Option
The Unvereable DecisionThe Big Picture Good Kind Of Choice
The Body Mind And Brain Sacrifice
This life style leaves an insipid tasteon the base of my tongue
Is fate directing me to the fullfiling life
to that routine out of the ordinary
to planning and timing andmovie like days
routine... how I hated that word
filled with fear and denial
routine ....
The awful truth lingers in my mind
bouncing around like a kid telling me the logical reason
the mathematical sequence
my impossible parting
making me dizzy and unaware of time
ah how precious is time
now i understand what old people mean
so little time to our sight
so much to those whose inmortality remains
as an young wise man said
I Am Inmortal Until The Day Im Destined To Die

The Fog of my inner jungle thoughts blinds me
and prevent me from going straight
A profecy made and ignored by so long
is destiny made or written
in the words of Forest Gump
I believe is both...

my road shall not end until a choice is made
but i feel that on the crossroad
on that exact second
that my feet must follow a direct path
i will not be able to move
and my body will be forever as a statue
unable to go or leave
we all walk blind trough this age
not trying to deal with whats right infront of us
choosing no to care
but if you notice
if you truly see and stare
you might be able to come up with the clearness
the TRUTH ive seen
we are all depressed
we have lost our inner happiness
we have lost our humanity
and no one man sacrifice will help it
we have forgotten the ancient ways
the path that our fore-fathers were trying to build
we have deattached ourselves so much from society
that im begining to see no hope

my life shall end with no glory
no hymns shall be sung
no rosebeds or parades
people will not go out on the street
and greet my coffin
I shall have a small private burial
some family and friends
maybe an acquaintance or two
but the people that matter
all of those whos lives will change
shall see me in my final resting place
and not cry since my departure will not be a sad moment
but a chance to see and open peoples eyes
I shall make the arrangements
everything thats necesary
Ill make everything right
I shall not go with public glory
but i know that i will go with private pride.